It's Always Been You

Hi.

I honestly don’t know what to say.

I’d like to start off with a massive SORRY. I have been completely absent online and I suck. I am aware of that. There have been a lot of things going on right now that have been consuming me mentally and physically. No need to worry… there are just a few things I need to sort out in this thing I call Life.

I do, however, feel compelled to mark this date.

There is no real significance to this date, but for me, it means a lot.

I don’t want to say why, not just yet (because I’m a freak like that and I don’t want to jinx anything) but let’s just say that I have not felt this happy in months. I’ve got that feeling of hope and pure excitement.

This is something that I truly believed would never come… not after my many mistakes and due to bad timing over the years. THE YEARS.

I, honestly, have wanted this for years.

This, possibly, is my chance for true happiness. This time I will not screw it up or let anything get in my way.

Here’s hoping that everything falls into place. It’s definitely too soon to get as excited as I am (and I may be in for a huge disappointment), but at least now I have hope. That’s all I need to keep me trying. Hope.